This weekend I went to Philly to enjoy the Philly Pride festivities. I was really excited to go being this my first “pride” experience. You see, it has taken me what is seems a long time to finally be “out and about” and be proud of being queer. In the past, I never allowed myself to enjoy any pride festivities or even say “I am gay”… to me that was something that it was my own “personal business” and something I deal with it… no a business for anyone else to know…Anyways, now I am passed those “dark age” years and I just feel happy with the real and total person I am… I am happy to be out… I am happy to be the real me… It feels like I can finally breathe… SO… I had all the excitement built up of my first pride… but now I must say I feel the same way I felt the first time I went to Disney = total disappointment.
I remember growing up I used to dream about the day I would go to Disney… it seemed almost an impossible dream… especially being a girl from Costa Rica (with a single mom so not much money around), how in the heck would I ever go to Disney… well years later when I moved to FL I was finally able to go… Ah I remember the excitement… I couldn’t sleep… I couldn’t believe I was going to Epcot… I went to all the Disney parks (except Animal Kingdom) and the more I went the more disappointed and almost “betrayed” I felt… my dreams went to trash… Disney was not what I was expecting… all those years of dreaming for that day I step a foot in Disney… all those years… for NOTHING!
Well, this weekend I felt a little similar to my Disney experience, no as bad but similar. There were also other issues happening that made this experience perhaps not as pleasant as I would have liked it but they were not the determinant factor, they just contributed to the cause =) Also, what a freakinig weather!!! I haven't experienced weather in the high 90's since moving from FL, oh Gosh!
I will not say that I will never go back to Philly Pride…. I might go again… but this time I know what I am going to see… the typical stuff = dykes on bikes (opening the parade see pic) and of course a big rainbow flag… oh and many gay people… Lesbians of all ages at the lesbian club… gay guys with their talks on the streets/restaurants… etc, etc…
And that’s about it.
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