As the year comes to an end I’ve come to realize a lot of things… such as the person that I am, the person I want to be, and the kind of people I want in my life… especially the kind of relations I want.
At the same time I get a little nostalgic/sad of thinking about all the things that happened this year… Gosh I never expected my life to take the turns, lows, and highs that it took, wow they were quite and experience.
I felt crazy in-love for the very first time of my life… and I had my heart broken for the first time too. I ended up in the hospital spending a week in a situation I never thought I would be in… I found my escape and terms of sanity in mtn biking-running… I’ve made new friendships and met some wonderful people along the way of recovering and pulling out of the ashes…
I found peace, understanding, love, forgiveness, and happiness for myself and others… I found my religion and a group of all welcoming people at the Unitarian Universalistic church. I found a more sense of purpose by helping others and volunteering…
Today as I write these lines I can finally see that I’ve come a long way… and there is nothing more than a brighter and greater future ahead of me.
Today I feel liberated, I can breathe, I can feel, I can smile….Everything that happened before is just what it needed to happen in order to continue with my personal, emotional, mental, and spiritual growth; I wouldn’t change a thing even if they hurt me I love them all!
Very soon I’ll be gone… good-bye to Asheville and hello Harrisburg… my life will turn around and I am sure that once again there will be more experiences… more people coming into my life, more highs, more lows, feelings, curve balls, you name it… but I’m prepared for all of that and actually looking forward!
And to end this blog the song of this year:
Life For Rent by Dido
I haven’t ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologies that once again I’m not in love
But it’s not as if I mind that your heart ain’t exactly breaking
It’s just a thought, only a thought
And if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I’ve always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what’s happened to that dream
Cos there’s really nothing left here to stop me
It’s just a thought, only a thought
And if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
And if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won’t let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won’t even try
Well how can I say I’m alive
if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Nothing I have is truly mine
Nothing I have is truly mine
Nothing I have is truly mine
Last week I did more mtn biking: Thursday night at BC with Dave and Mike from SORBA... it was freezing!!! Around high 10s - low 20s.... Then Saturday at DuPont with Jenn and the gang; once again I locked my keys in the car... and you know how the story goes... get a locksmith... etc.
The other days I went to the gym and did my usual weights routines and cardio, trying to get back in shape. I am not sure what has happened to me but somehow I've been gaining weight... yes I am not exercising as much as I used to but.... I am still gaining weight but I can't really see it. Some people tell me that it is muscle but I am not sure... all I hope is to get back in shape.
What else? Well it is getting closer and closer to the day I am leaving Asheville to Harrisburg... I can't believe it... I should be at Harrisburg on Jan 6 so that leaves me less than a month here in Asheville.... I have so many mixed feelings, but I know this is the right thing to do for my career. It only took me one year to "move up" and if I don't do it then I might not have the same opportunity coming my way again...
Well, I am going mtn biking tomorrow and probably this weekend... I'm going to enjoy my last mtn biking trips in Asheville...
Wow...
Yes friends the "Run At he Rock" 7 miles trail running ended up being the most fun I've had in a race thus far! I feel like I've found another "niche" and now that I've done trail running I can't see myself doing road running... trail running is much more fun and challenging... at least I felt it that way.
In addition, this is the furthest running I've done in my life! For real! I think the max I've ran is 3 miles or so... and all on the road or treadmill nothing for real in a trail situation and nothing in a race, of course...
Long story short:
- Get up early to travel 3+ hrs to Burlington NC.
- Got speeding ticket at Winston-Salem for going 20 mph over the limit LOL LOL OMG! I had not idea I was going that fast I was just thinking I was going to be late for the race... Now I have to appear in court, darned!
- Got to the race just in time to get my number, put on my chip, run to the starting line, and run again... no time for warming up or/and stretching after being in the car for so long.
- Did I mention it was a cold morning???
- Ran and the more I did the better I felt... I started to pass people and passed more and got in a good rhythm; attacking the hills and approaching the trailS in the same way I do when I mtn bike.
- When I reached the 3 miles mark I thought, "ok there is just 1 more to go" that was my mentality at each mile... and it made the whole experience nice!
The official time was 1:16:50 and finished 10th in my group (30-39) and 245 from 700 people... not bad! Especially taking into consideration that I haven't trained at all and that, as I mentioned before, I've never done any trail running-race and long distance running.
I am so proud of myself and this is giving me even more motivation to get back to my exercising routine...
Hitting the gym tonight!
